Lightning in a Bottle

edited Thurs 16th June 2011 because my picture disappeared :( Here's a different one:



...I have to fill this space or it looks like there's an ugly gap in my journal (har har). Find your music video download links here. YouTube links are scattered all over the place... I suggest you click the tag "vids".

( Because everything's getting disabled on YouTube )

Hello! Apparently the slightly awkward and unprofessional phone interview wasn't too bad after all. I rocked the trial run and got the job (w00t!). It's nice to not have to keep doing crappy temp jobs.

It's starting to get warmer here now, Summer is creeping up. I'd forgotten that the change in weather is so unpleasant in S.A. hehe. Had it easy when it was the same all year around. Ebay is about to become my best friend in the search for summer clothing!!

Short update only, there's nothing pissing me off too hard right now ;)

You know, I said I was going to be on a work call between 7 and 8 and to please not interrupt me, but still got yelling throught he door halfway through the call. Dad's loud voice yelling my name over and over. For fuck's sake. I had to yell back I'M ON THE PHONE and apologize down the phone. He wanted to say that he's getting pizza and do I want one while he's there.... nice thought, but does that warrant yelling through the door over and over? Five times he yelled my name. Yeah, that's professional. I explained that someone was yelling my name and of course my boss said "Oh.... okay." *eyeroll* He'd be wondering why I didn't ask to not be interrupted HAH. God freaking damnit.

That was basically a phone interview, and it was going really well until that point. Then I had to play catch-up to make up for the interruption.

I never get pizza with them. Never eat it from the place they go to. He knows this. He knows I don't like Pedro's Pizza.

Another example of why I sometimes wonder if it's all on purpose.

You know how the important things sometimes get overshadowed by the little things that run your life? How you somtimes can't see the big picture through the maze of crap that has gathered in front of you? That's about where I am right now. This shit with my family is preventing me from dealing with the important things, making it very hard to live my life. Sigh.

I try and stay positive but sometimes it just needs to escape, so I'm trying to keep the whining on livejournal and not in real life. I could whine to somebody but right now I have only a couple of potential candidates for that task and it's not fair to do that to them. I hear it every single day from my sis, I don't want anyone to have to hear it from me the same way.

So lets think about the important things for a minute.

( The big three... )

Funny how I've got three key stress issues going all at once right now and I still wonder why I'm a basketcase ;)

Argh, I can't help it. This has become a place to vent the small shit so I don't let it out at some inappropriate time.

( Here we go again... )

It really is driving me insane. I don't understand why it has to be this way or why she can't just see the way she's behaving.

It might also help if people would let me sleep. Talking loudly with the TV turned right up at 10pm when I have to be up by 5am is a little rude :P

Karma is only a bitch if you are.

Too true!

Everything has consequences. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction... and all that. Heh.

I figure that the crappy way certain people have been treating me, thus making me not want to spend any time with them, is an example of this. They want me to hang around with them? Better not treat me like shit then. Simple. Simple for some anyway.

Whining, guilt tripping, and blaming everything on me will get you nowhere. It's all bullshit. I'm sick of hearing it. You can not blame somebody else for your own actions. It's what you do that determines what happens to you. It's the way you treat people that determines how they will treat you.

It's easy really. I'm pretty sure everybody is taught as a child to treat people the way you would like them to treat you.

It's not always an eye for an eye. Bullying somebody does not necessarily mean that they will bully you. But it does mean that they will most likely not treat you with kindness in return (unless they are particularly optimistic). They will not jump to grant you favors.

My situation is kind of similar. For the most part I am happy to help people out however I can, but the worse that somebody treats me the less likely I am to help them in the future. It's sort of a sliding scale. Eventually you hit a point where I will not be willing to help at all. It takes a lot to get that far, but it can happen.

Somebody is pushing their luck.

Harry Potter / Death Eater Vid to Ten Years Kashmir:


There was going to be more at the beginning but I can't seem to get the clips. Cest la vie.

Oh I forgot to post this earlier! Internet was out, there was frustration. I took it out on notepad.

The first cut's me whining about my service provider. The second's darker stuff, no good for kids. The last is about family and abuse/neglect. Oh fun. The whining is kind of funny if you don't mind a lot of swearing.

( Virgin mobile broadband took a few hours of my life last night... )

( Morons bitches and psychopaths, OH MY! )

( You can pick and choose your friends but not your family. And running away from them only leads to private investigators and restraining orders... )

So yes, the internet did eventually work. I got my balance recharged at around 5pm today. Heh.

Lady Van Tassel icon = kind of appropriate.

Something new.



Like I said in the description. I'm sure it's been done before. Everything Harry Potter has been done before.

Everything has happened before and everything will happen again =Þ

I'm still trying to finish a bunch of videos and it's going so slowly. I'm less and less in the mood to do them.

The walking ended up taking a bit over 3 hours. So it's the prep work that's the bitch.

I love my new job. Why the hell did I stick with the old one for so damn long??? WHY? I was not getting paid nearly enough for what I was doing. Not even close. This has cemented the fact that I made the right choice. Phew.

I keep making bits and pieces of videos. At this rate I'm probably better off making something really short, just to get over it. I think I've said that before but it's still true. The longer and bigger projects just aren't getting done, it's a real time waster.

More later, I can't be bothered right now, ta ta.